Day of confrontations

Ugh.. my nose is leaking like crazy!! ugh seems like confrontation after confrontation today. lynette, ain, cheena and dizzy. well for lynette im almost at peace with it.. apparently theres gonna be a reply so not knowing what it is yet creates an incompletion. if only thats the only thing i have to handle today.. haha ain called today see whether wanted to hang out. i dont have a prob with her.. *sigh* it was painful for me continuing my relationship with eunice back then after she cheated on me with a so called friend. the suspicion and all the crap that came after that was hard to bear even though i succeeded. it was something i nvr wished for someone else to experience. so strong the emotion that i unconciously avoid unnessecary interaction with any of my friends' gfs.. haha though after i cleared with eunice abt our past it cease to affect me. the framework still there though. ack sneezing fit..... so i still get mildly triggered from time to time.
anyway ever since ain been more involved with the work i got closer to her. *smiles* she's like a sister to me. slowly the framework is breaking apart. though today like abit too much she called which is rare she even got me a gift for chrismas. guilt trip nvr got her anything... haha... ill let her know abt this soon since we will be doing blp together. getting triggered again. damn frameworks... haha then theres the thing with cheena and dizzy. abt cre8 juvenile.. im getting closer to discovering exactly why i dived into that project and so far it doesnt look pretty and dread bringing this up to them which i have to. having no choice is still a choice to be made haha. spent the evening with them. trigger trigger.. manifest to a flu... drip drip. ugh pile of tissue getting pretty huge hahah how much shit have i been putting on myself? hahah it seems endless. still have to clean it up anyway. haha damn you kelvin hahahha pfft i made the choice haha no turning back ever since then. *smiles*