The Reason

ya know ive been wondering so many times why i still involve myself with the work and ECI... im not complaining or anything. it just boggles me sometimes ya know? not knowing that reason that hits it home.. haha.. well i found my reason... and it came from watching Naruto wahahha.. yes another insight from a cartoon abt ninja kids. damn the kids! haha but we can learn alot from kids...well i finaly got to watch the episodes in the fight between Naruto and Hyuuga Neji. go dl the cartoon if you want haha. anyway it addresses abt fate circumstance destiny. from young ive always been the kid that had expectations put on him... ( actually which kid doesnt have that.. duh) hahah anyway i did pretty great as a kid did well in my studies read alot stuff parents like ya know? however that changed after my father died. that point of time it was ike a part of me died as well.. so many issues revolved around my fathers death tht im certain it will be a long time b4 i clear all of it. after that i became the well charity case. every1 sympathize with me. gave me excuses for the things i did till i came to accept tht. that i was a charity case. all happened was beyond my control its ok.. your dad died we understand... yadayadayada. haha all due respect i am not belittling my dad's death the sadness of it nor the 'help' i go tfrom every1. it just got me to believe that i cant do anything for mself. ppl gaves excuses for my failures for me so often i could not even acknowledge my successes. i gave excuses for both. becoz tht was all the i ever saw. that everything i did was beyond my control. then came the day i met kelvin. (bless you yi lin for that chance) the reason is simple. Kelvin acknowledged me... no excuses ya know. he ws the first i would say to really acknowledge that i could. that i ws beyond my fate. the fate that i created in the first place. I created it. if so why cant i recreate it? of course i can. i did. and im still creating. hahah ive got a long way to go... at the same time looking back..... ive come a long way too. once again thank you every1. for all the good and bad that got me here. now that im here would you like to join me? the greatest gift i got was that choice. ive never seen it realy this way b4 i would like to give that choice to ppl. the choice to choose.