Sick

hmm woke up with cough and block nose... its been awhile i dont fall sick easily nowadays... wonder whats up? hmm i see...cough is a build up of wanting to say something. yeah im pretty incomplete abt that Ilaf. the more i think abt it the harder i cough.. haha.. funny how the body works sometimes.. confrontations manifesting to physical ailments. hmm block nose... lets see..
constant brooding over blp and my choices.. ive gotta make a choice soon.. cant delay it too long...energy kinda low too today...resistance to going back to camp... haha wonder whats up with that sia.. thought i ended that already... ugh... i took mc on wed... cant entertain it like this its starting make choices for me again. sigh. Ilaf do something abt it. you got less than an hr. lets complete our experience in Delta. oh yeah and whats the deal with yest night before we slept? ugh my head is fuzzy right now... dont want me to rem eh? i already told you whether or not some1 comes into the pic your existence is already made clear to me...i wont push you down anymore now quit arguing you know what i said is true.. we already made a pact b4 now stay true to it... yes yes our plans for that will take place.. dont worry...its already in motion..it will be evident in blp... yeah do that... source for alternate ways for me to attend blp.. its important i do it this time round... haha yes i know im tired of being patient as well... it will be done 1 way or another so do that.. get back to me on wed so i can speak to kelvin.. hmm stopped coughing block nose clearing up... *sigh* Ilaf and my body works together too often sometimes to make me see stuff haha.. all the more since i can converse with my body it will be an added medium of expression.. hmm reading the whole damn thing sounds like processing.. haha im counting on you Ilaf. we gotta make this work somehow... jeez just realise this whole post is an actual convo hahaha well theres always a first. *shruggs*