Ownership

its been a while since i took a look at the situation in camp... it has been really draggy for me and i keep falling asleep. energy lvl is so low i've stopped living...Part of me fears i have fallen once again to sleeping... In actual truth i have... (pause... lin im finally getting my ass off again to start journaling hahah) In the depths of my sleep in camp came the realisation for all that has been happening in camp... it started with me getting my posting after grad from SISPEC... bmtc.... hahahha i wanted to go to a unit in mainland so i have more time to do what i wanted to do.... i didnt own my decision to be in bmtc... choosing no choice is still a choice and i didnt own it.. ran around wishing i was in an ops unit.. haha something so in my face yet i was blind to it....however another realisation surfaced that bmtc would be the place where i would stretch myself...funny how you intend for something and you get it in the wierdness ways. my game of systems and positioning. where better place to play that game with plenty more ppl to interact with in bmtc with tons of ppl with the same rank and recruits to experiment with (enrollmentwise) as compared to an ops unit with plenty more superiors and only 6 men under me?? hahaha it hit like a slap in my face that ive been positioning myself to end up in bmtc hahahah looks like im getting a better hand at positioning than i thought.. hahaha and it renforces my stand which i made going to ns that i would stretch myself putting the work in use in terms of social skills manueverability leadership training... i own it... bmtc is my playground now... hahaha let the madness begin once more.... hahhaha